Having one of those nights when I can't sleep...just can't turn my mind off.
Two more weeks of work left (plus a final on-call weekend), then the paychecks stop. So does the health insurance. Going to have to file for my Social Security. Need to find out about COBRA insurance, but have serious doubts about whether I can afford it. Two years until I am eligible for Medicare. My Social Security alone isn't going to be enough to subsist on. Jack will have his VA benefit and Social Security...but he will also have alimony to pay. Still waiting to see what happens re: his ex's health insurance. Will be a real kick in the teeth if he is forced to pay for hers while I can't afford any! Worried that the courts may take half his income for her...she could end up with more income than he has! Men do not fare well in this state when it comes to divorce.
We are getting ready to make a huge life change. It is exciting to contemplate, but scary too. Wondering what expenses will be like and how well we will be able to manage. Live safe or take a chance? We are opting to take a chance. I do fine with some risks, but financial risks are hard for me. We could try and live a quiet, safe life in Wilmington. I would be near Becca and my beloved Katie and Jackson, but we wouldn't have much going on in our life. It's not likely there would be money for travel once we paid all our basic living expenses. I don't want to waste away on the couch. So we are opting to take a chance...take the risk...and put adventure into our later years. Exciting but scary.
Keeps me awake some nights...
